{THIS IS HALLOWEEN ♥}

Ask me anything   sam(antha). english major. nature girl. yogi. faerie princess. vegetarian. photographer. gypsy. finding my way through life.

Fifty-four
This is the little one who thought she could take on my 75 pound dog lol. She’s actually the leader of the pack at my parents’, but Daisy would not have it. She’s adorable though, isn’t she? Maybe a little evil… Hell’s Bells. You should have seen what she did to the brand new dog brush I just bought for Daisy -_-
Left for home this afternoon. I feel better but still am not sure what exactly will happen with school. I have some hard decisions to make.
I’ve been talking to some new people online, and that’s given me some confidence. And it’s nice to just have a good conversation. Maybe even a possibility of a date in the near future… I guess we’ll see. Trying to not get ahead of myself.

Fifty-four
This is the little one who thought she could take on my 75 pound dog lol. She’s actually the leader of the pack at my parents’, but Daisy would not have it. She’s adorable though, isn’t she? Maybe a little evil… Hell’s Bells. You should have seen what she did to the brand new dog brush I just bought for Daisy -_-
Left for home this afternoon. I feel better but still am not sure what exactly will happen with school. I have some hard decisions to make.
I’ve been talking to some new people online, and that’s given me some confidence. And it’s nice to just have a good conversation. Maybe even a possibility of a date in the near future… I guess we’ll see. Trying to not get ahead of myself.

— 8 hours ago
#bella  #bells  #german shepherd  #puppy  #adorable  #evil 
Fifty-three

Can you see that spec on the horizon?
Maybe you can no longer tell.
It’s just a little white dot among this blue
but I see it so well.
Yes I’ve watched it from the harbor
since before it knew to sail.
And even after all this time,
I never thought that it might fail.

There is cool sand here beneath my feet
and nostalgia in my heart.
I wish I could name the force that keeps
the shore and waves apart.
I have fought against it with everything,
I have wanted to stop the tide.
But the moon has proved stronger than me,
in spite of anything I tried.

I dreamt that you might sit here
beside me as color left the sky.
We could watch on the horizon
as day turned into night.
And a little boat we once had hoped
would carry us away
would go instead beyond that line
and into the darkness fade.

The light is getting dim, dear,
let’s not get caught in the dark.
It’s been a wonderful last few years,
but it’s time now to embark…

Oh I never knew how quickly
that love could be derailed.
But I’m saying it now, freely,
our ship has sailed.

— 1 day ago with 4 notes
#life  #personal  #poem  #poetry  #sailing  #sailboat  #visual poetry  #love  #53  #bkc  #ocean  #tide  #our ship has sailed  #let it go 
Fifty-two Today I hung out with momma around the house, gave Daisy a bath, and then headed to the beach for sunset. I have seen a lot of sunrises there, but relatively few sunsets. Either way, there are few things better than cool sand on your feet. And I can’t imagine any place in the world that has better colors at dusk or dawn. P.S. Daisy is so soft and smells so nice (Y) I would be even happier if Bella (my parents’ puppy) didn’t chew up the brand new brush I just bought a month ago. lol Bella (AKA Hell’s Bells) has filled out, but she’s still petite and probably won’t grow any more. Her colors are awesome though, darker than normal black and tan but very light eyes. Nikko is about the same. Ada is definitely getting older. I try to spend some extra time with her because I know she might not be here the next time I visit. But for now, she’s happy and seems healthy, so besides her getting super grey, hopefully she’ll stay that way.

Fifty-two
Today I hung out with momma around the house, gave Daisy a bath, and then headed to the beach for sunset. I have seen a lot of sunrises there, but relatively few sunsets.
Either way, there are few things better than cool sand on your feet. And I can’t imagine any place in the world that has better colors at dusk or dawn.
P.S. Daisy is so soft and smells so nice (Y) I would be even happier if Bella (my parents’ puppy) didn’t chew up the brand new brush I just bought a month ago. lol
Bella (AKA Hell’s Bells) has filled out, but she’s still petite and probably won’t grow any more. Her colors are awesome though, darker than normal black and tan but very light eyes. Nikko is about the same. Ada is definitely getting older. I try to spend some extra time with her because I know she might not be here the next time I visit. But for now, she’s happy and seems healthy, so besides her getting super grey, hopefully she’ll stay that way.

— 2 days ago
#beach  #sunset  #dusk  #ocean  #waves  #pretty  #florida  #life  #personal  #momma  #juno  #sky  #atlantic 
Fifty-oneSince I was home, I got to see my beautiful not-so-little sister emcee for multicultural night! Which is a big even my high school has always done. It’s her last year, and she performed once before.Very cute and some neat acts tonight (:

Fifty-one
Since I was home, I got to see my beautiful not-so-little sister emcee for multicultural night! Which is a big even my high school has always done. It’s her last year, and she performed once before.
Very cute and some neat acts tonight (:

— 3 days ago
#srhs  #aimee  #multicultural night  #high school 
Fifty
Today was a gorgeous fall day here, breezy, crisp and cool, not a cloud in the sky. It was almost hard to leave. But there’s a long weekend for once, and I decided to go home to visit.
I’m a bit concerned about Daisy meeting my family’s dogs, but I think it should be okay.
POF has certainly been interesting. I think I had forgotten that I am an interesting person. Or cute. Or both. lol. Or else quite a few people seem to think so. But it’s nice to have a real conversation. It’s refreshing. And encouraging.
I actually may have found someone date-worthy. We shall see where it goes (Y)

Fifty
Today was a gorgeous fall day here, breezy, crisp and cool, not a cloud in the sky. It was almost hard to leave. But there’s a long weekend for once, and I decided to go home to visit.
I’m a bit concerned about Daisy meeting my family’s dogs, but I think it should be okay.
POF has certainly been interesting. I think I had forgotten that I am an interesting person. Or cute. Or both. lol. Or else quite a few people seem to think so. But it’s nice to have a real conversation. It’s refreshing. And encouraging.
I actually may have found someone date-worthy. We shall see where it goes (Y)

— 4 days ago
Forty-nine Mom left early this afternoon. I finished up the Halloween decorations, but then felt kinda bummed out and slept a bunch today. l: On a more positive note, I did do some research on better yoga classes, and… I joined a dating website. lol. Which has been very amusing for the last few hours and also terrifying. The photo: look at my adorable pansies I lawv them. c:

Forty-nine
Mom left early this afternoon. I finished up the Halloween decorations, but then felt kinda bummed out and slept a bunch today. l:
On a more positive note, I did do some research on better yoga classes, and… I joined a dating website. lol. Which has been very amusing for the last few hours and also terrifying.
The photo: look at my adorable pansies I lawv them. c:

— 5 days ago
Forty-eight
Today mom and I worked on Halloween decorations after I got back from class. It was a breezy day, not quite cool yet. It rained all night so maybe it will be tomorrow.
We also made pumpkin pie, and muffins with leftover pie filling. I’m really happy with how it came out.

Forty-eight
Today mom and I worked on Halloween decorations after I got back from class. It was a breezy day, not quite cool yet. It rained all night so maybe it will be tomorrow.
We also made pumpkin pie, and muffins with leftover pie filling. I’m really happy with how it came out.

— 5 days ago
#fall  #autumn  #pumpkin  #pie  #candy corn  #yum  #life  #personal 
Forty-seven
This was kinda the happy ending to a really challenging day.
This morning mom and I went to the wellness center to see about me finding a psychologist. It’s been a long time coming, I think. And it’s taken a lot of time for me to put my stubbornness aside and admit that I’m not handling this very well on my own.
We also had to see my academic and financial advisors, which was also difficult for me. If I agree to find a psychologist, it’s possible that the classes I need to drop can be done so with a medical withdrawal… Though it will not be fun to go and have to explain this to my professors. Or the rest of my family.
We came home and relaxed for a while. It was all a lot to take in. Mom might have found a yoga class for me that’s free, and we are planning to work on Halloween decorations tomorrow.
I have been beating myself up and not letting myself do fun things because I’m not doing very well in school. But my mom pointed out that I have to have something to look forward to.
I’m grateful she’s here.

Forty-seven
This was kinda the happy ending to a really challenging day.
This morning mom and I went to the wellness center to see about me finding a psychologist. It’s been a long time coming, I think. And it’s taken a lot of time for me to put my stubbornness aside and admit that I’m not handling this very well on my own.
We also had to see my academic and financial advisors, which was also difficult for me. If I agree to find a psychologist, it’s possible that the classes I need to drop can be done so with a medical withdrawal… Though it will not be fun to go and have to explain this to my professors. Or the rest of my family.
We came home and relaxed for a while. It was all a lot to take in. Mom might have found a yoga class for me that’s free, and we are planning to work on Halloween decorations tomorrow.
I have been beating myself up and not letting myself do fun things because I’m not doing very well in school. But my mom pointed out that I have to have something to look forward to.
I’m grateful she’s here.

— 5 days ago
#me  #my face  #pumpkin  #jackolantern  #halloween  #fall  #home 
Forty-six
The three of us went to Kanapaha Botanical Gardens today. It wasn’t the greatest weather for a few hours outdoors, but it was still nice. Also it was great to have a break from walking Daisy lol.

Forty-six
The three of us went to Kanapaha Botanical Gardens today. It wasn’t the greatest weather for a few hours outdoors, but it was still nice. Also it was great to have a break from walking Daisy lol.

— 5 days ago
#daisy  #mom  #kanapaha  #botanical  #gardens  #german shepherd  #woof 
Forty-five Took mom to the butterfly rainforest today for her first time. It was a nice day and I’m really glad to have her here. We went for coffee this morning but got it to-go so we could sit in the gardens, went to the museum, made lunch at home, and went to see the bats to end the day. The photo, I believe, is a Pink Rose, or Pachliopta kotzebuea.

Forty-five
Took mom to the butterfly rainforest today for her first time. It was a nice day and I’m really glad to have her here.
We went for coffee this morning but got it to-go so we could sit in the gardens, went to the museum, made lunch at home, and went to see the bats to end the day.
The photo, I believe, is a Pink Rose, or Pachliopta kotzebuea.

— 5 days ago
#flmnh  #butterfly  #lepidoptera  #pink rose  #black  #wings 

44

A video of Daisy being silly. Or me. lol
Mom got here today around 4. I am super glad she’s here. Hopefully we can do some fun stuff in the next couple days. Not sure how long she’s staying.

— 5 days ago
#daisy  #life  #personal 
43 If you don’t have someone to buy you flowers, buy your own. (Y)
I love Trader Joe’s. They always have sunflowers there.
I also got a bunch of begonias, some chrysanthemums, pentas, and pansies all for less than 10$ at Lowe’s and WalMart. I was so excited. They price things really low when they are almost out of”season.” But joke’s on them because this is Florida and even up here, there’s hardly enough change to call it a season lol

43
If you don’t have someone to buy you flowers, buy your own. (Y)

I love Trader Joe’s. They always have sunflowers there.

I also got a bunch of begonias, some chrysanthemums, pentas, and pansies all for less than 10$ at Lowe’s and WalMart. I was so excited. They price things really low when they are almost out of”season.” But joke’s on them because this is Florida and even up here, there’s hardly enough change to call it a season lol

— 1 week ago with 1 note
#sunflowers  #life  #personal  #flowers  #cheerful  #happy 
42
I went to the thrift store today, the really cheap one, and bought things to make a bed for Daisy. Here she is sleeping on it before I’m anywhere near done.
I also went to Salvation Army since it was nearby, and got a little lamp for my room, and looked at a bunch of old typewriters, just for fun.
I asked mom to come visit, so we’ll see when it happens.

42
I went to the thrift store today, the really cheap one, and bought things to make a bed for Daisy. Here she is sleeping on it before I’m anywhere near done.
I also went to Salvation Army since it was nearby, and got a little lamp for my room, and looked at a bunch of old typewriters, just for fun.
I asked mom to come visit, so we’ll see when it happens.

— 1 week ago
41
I left my bio lab early today. I don’t know exactly what it was but I couldn’t stand to be in there anymore.
Daisy’s first trip to the vet was earlier today. She did a lot better than I expected. It turns out that in addition to hot spots she also has a fungal skin infection. They were trying to sell me like 200$ worth of medications and I basically said no. I just got the ketoconazole because that’s the only thing she seemed to really need. I won’t be taking her there again, for a number of reasons.

41
I left my bio lab early today. I don’t know exactly what it was but I couldn’t stand to be in there anymore.
Daisy’s first trip to the vet was earlier today. She did a lot better than I expected. It turns out that in addition to hot spots she also has a fungal skin infection. They were trying to sell me like 200$ worth of medications and I basically said no. I just got the ketoconazole because that’s the only thing she seemed to really need. I won’t be taking her there again, for a number of reasons.

— 1 week ago
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I didn’t take any pictures today, but I went to yoga for the first time since I moved here. It wasn’t as great as my last class but I will keep trying other teachers.
I tried to change my triage appointment to something sooner but the times fill up too fast. I guess I will wait until the 13th. I’m just worried I’ll chicken out in that time.
I had been emailing Bryan for a short time, but that ended yesterday. I don’t know what the answer is. There really isn’t anything else to even say.
I am hoping to send The Water Whispers Ilse a letter soon, and yo send Jacob a package with some fun things in it. I think it will cost 20-25$ just for the”video” size flat rate box, but I want to do it for him.

— 2 weeks ago